I think you did a great job of writing it all down, even though it was difficult for you...you got through it!

Sometimes things just plain don't work out the way we hoped they would. I think that things happen for a reason. Whatever that reason may be....I hope you can find the strength to email your sis. It sounds like she loves you and that you love her.

You must have had some valid reasons not to jump into a home that you didn't feel comfy with. I commend you for doing that. It's not easy to rationally think about the negative possibilities in things when we really want something badly. We can easily be blinded by the excitement of obtaining what we want that we don't see the negatives.

Take some deep breathes.....it's ok to feel badly for yourself that this didn't work out the way you had hoped. Know in time, life will bring you many opportunities for you to take....and you will


sabby