It seems to me he really loves you. Why would he be willing to continue this relationship with you if he didn’t? What is he gaining from it? There’s back/forth and constant fighting. Does he just want a sparing partner?

Although he has treated you crappy in some ways, he has treated you very well in other ways. This is a very tough concept for me to grasp in my personal life. I’ve had to weigh that the person who claims to love me has acted more loving than unloving, so I can accept they truly do love me, even though they have been so hurtful. It doesn’t seem logical how love can work this way, but I guess it does.