Ugh I am just NOT doing well. Physically I feel like ****. Whatever physical malaise is going on is still there. Plus I believe I have tendinitis is my wrist/hand, and I definitely have sciatic pain again. I am getting a cortisone injection in my back on Tuesday. Every day is different in terms of pain level. Like on Friday by the afternoon it hurt so bad I had to keep standing up and stretching. I was doing hip stretches in my chair too. Helped a little bit. It’s really affecting my knee too though can barely bend it when I get in bed at the end of the day.

Emotionally I’m completely scattered. I’m switching from agitation and rage to abject depression. Don’t know where I’m going to be on any given day. There’s just so much going on in my head. I don’t see my therapist this week because of the injection.

I really don’t want to work with her anymore. It’s almost like she’s too close to me now. She knows me too well and I’m embarrassed to share anything else with her.

I just feel like I’m in over my head at this point.