I tried to take a break from here because my emotions and thinking were out of control. I don't know that I've ever felt this afraid or negative before. I didn't want to cause anyone any problems, so I stepped away to try to deal with things. That didn't work. Things got worse. I'll try to control myself so as not to be too much.

Today, things are a little better and a little worse. I know that probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but does feel accurate. I'm trying to do my best for my pups, because that takes my focus off me. I'm really scared and unsure how to get better, and maybe I can't. Sorry to be so much trouble. Thanks to everyone.