I really should make one. I saw her at the beginning of March and I was supposed to call back to make my next appt but I forgot. I only see her once every three months and I have a LOT of meds stored up somehow so I just forgot. I’m just afraid it’s not really anything she can help with. It’s just like everything from my past that I thought I was over is coming back to get me all at once and I have no idea which problem to begin with.

Recently I’ve been thinking I don’t even have bipolar really and it’s all just in my head, you know? But at the same time I have to remember the depressed episode I had last year was completely horrific and I really didn’t sleep for pretty much the entire summer. Quite often I was up until 3 or 4 the the morning but I was still getting up to take my son to camp and not going back to sleep during the day.

I don’t know.....maybe things begin as a trigger, like an emotional confrontation or memory or something and then it develops into an actual chemical episode if left unattended? I’m really unsure.

I’ll try to remember to make an appt with my pdoc tomorrow.