I understand because I'm an elder caregiver. I been through many deaths with the client and the families. Dear friends I've lost. Death always haunts me. I grieve right along with them. I realize eventually that I had to let go and protect myself. They are out of pain and not suffering. It's only us left here to care on. They wouldn't want me to not carry on in their memory. They're the fortunate ones. Death is easy. Living is hard. Just say'n. Hugs my friend...