I'm not sure I'm schizoaffective anymore. My voices are quiet now. And my PN has my diagnosis as MDD. My therapist thinks I have MDD with attachment disorder. I think I have "Quiet BPD". I'm not really volatile with other people. I'm very self-critical and think of harming myself all the time. I have no sense of self. I move from one thing to the next constantly. I feel empty inside and try to fill that void with food and people. But people don't have time for me and so I'm left with food and activities.

Today is stressful. I have too much to do and no way to relax. I may try to read but I don't think I can settle down enough.