I've had a rollercoaster day, like so many of my days. Didn't sleep well, but got up in a fairly good mood, thanks to some snuggling with my pups. After an hour or so, my mood swung negative and stayed there until just a few minutes ago, when things started to feel a little better. I'm dealing with terrible health anxiety lately. I promised my pups that I would live long enough to take care of them until their final days. Since that promise, I've been certain I was going to die of about a dozen different things. My overall anxiety has been terrible since I made that promise.

I've been watching some YT videos just now that have helped me calm down and recognize that the health anxiety does have an origin and a reason why I feel that way. Hopefully, I can find a way out because it's been 20 years of feeling like this and I'm just too old to keep living like this. The video reminded me that it's easy to stay stuck in anxiety because you become comfortable with it. So, while I know what I need to do, doing it is very difficult.