I found a new trigger this weekend.
My neighbours boyfriend. He may as well be the same person.
He looks similar, he has a similar attitude and demeanor and man I just got so overwhelmed. I zone out whenever they appear near us - Sometimes we hang outside (distanced) for drinks, but I have to eventually get up and leave I just can't.

Its great that I'm noticing them, but do they ever get easier? I just feel so drowned by it all, everything about it drains me, living in that space in my head, never knowing when I'm going to hit with flashbacks. I feel nauseous and tired all the time.

Does it end? Does anyone have any recommendations on PTSD reading? books or articles that are good?

Love this community so much.
Thank you.