My 1st husband raped my cousins wife. My 2nd husband was a drunk. My 3rd husband was a total narcissist, gaslighter, control freak, liar and cruel. But, he wasn't a cheater. I was so brain washed after the last one. Yes, I loved them all. Haha. True story. Since I made my escape, I live alone with my dog and it's peaceful. Hugs to all of you...