I've had my fair share of ****** and fair pdocs. Some making me more unstable then naturally. My first pdoc missed BP in both myself and my husband. Next couple missed the scizo part. Most of them miss the anxiety part. It's slowly coming together but it's been 14+ years since my first BP diagnosis. Granted I haven't been the best patient but it shouldn't have taken 9 years to try an AP, even if I was pushing back against meds.

I've had 1 pdoc that I got along with well all the others I've been lukewarm about. So only 1 I would call in an emergency. I've grown considerably the last 6 years but I don't feel they can really help me when things go bad. By my current pdoc I'm always told I should have gone to the ER but if he read my file he'd know I won't go willingly even if it's not a psych issue. The fact that I'm left to my own devices for 3 months at a time leaves a bad taste in my mouth.