i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. Try to see if there are any activities near you that you may join and perhaps even some online groups if you trust that. You can start meeting people IRL from there i think. Wishing you the very best! Sending many Safe, Warm hugs to BOTH you, @Itearor, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!