Thanks, Artie and Kit. There is definitely something about discussions on money that brings up guilt. I also really struggle to have discussions with H about anything financial. Like he can just say, "Hey, what were the charges on this credit card?" like to just put it in the budget spreadsheet, and I start apologizing. And he'll say he doesn't care, he just wants to know what they are.
I think it's also difficult to discuss with therapists because it brings up the whole nature of the relationship. That they're ultimately providing a service for money. And the thought of, how, if we could no longer pay them, they'd stop caring (even though they'd likely still care--at least I hope they would--they just could no longer meet with us).