((((((((jinnyann)))))))) i understand what you are saying sweetie. Sometimes, in certain situations, just the thought can be a trigger for us. Especially in a situation like yours. It doesn't in anyway to me say that you are a bad person. It says to me you have been thru so much at the hands of another, they are the bad person. Not you.

I do like what Sky said about above. Letting go of the grudge, hatred and anger, etc... I personally think that being able to do that, to purge ourselves of that negativity is to take back the power and energy we used to hang onto them. It is these things that tire us down and weigh so heavily on us. Kind of like setting down the access baggage and lightening your personal load to carry. Then your arms will be open to receive something positive in it's place.

Does that make any sense at all said aloud? It made sense in my head, lol.