Dr thinks I have benign vertigo and should start physical therapy since it’s been recurring for a year or so. Also think my headaches are migraines and I should go to a neurologist. Everything will have to wait until July when I am on summer break. But I’m going to call the neurologist tomorrow since appointments usually book out 2-3 months for an initial visit. He gave me pills to take if I feel one coming on but for whatever reason can only prescribe nine at a time...guess they are scheduled drugs. But only as needed so it’ll work out I’m sure.

I feel better emotionally today. High anxiety upon waking but I think I was just anxious about the dr. I hate dr visits. My heart rate is always over 100 and they always want to do an EKG and I have to explain it’s just anxiety. They’ve been doing EKGs for years and never found anything!

Maybe I just needed a day off of work to de stress. I also think I just need to write about everything in my head, you know? Like I used to. I’m too afraid/embarrassed/confused to share it all with my therapist. It just feels like if I can work on sorting things out I can figure out what I want to address first.