Well I have a new t. I am a train wreck. No one deserves what I put him through. He said if I'm ever say that I want a divorce he'd still be friends knowing it came from a place of sickness. I just want to be normal. Why isn't love enough. I want to be able to breathe. I want to be self destructive. I want to let all my energy out. If I tell they won't switch meds I'll be ip. So I'll be good and wait until I talk to new T. I'm an adult my husband doesn't need to babysit me. I have a plan. Just need to act normal. It's only two days before I see reg dr.