i am So Sorry that you're going through this! Please don't give up! i think it will take some time to fully heal but of course everyone is different so i can't really be sure. i agree with the wise and wonderful ThisaBuv about buying some self-help books. Perhaps some online articles may Help as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Have Hope, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!