Welcome! So Sorry that you are struggling! i agree with the wise and wonderful CANDC about seeing a therapist or a support group perhaps. i can partly relate to what you're saying as i also don't feel much passion or interest these days i think. i can understand your concerns about your own weight but i think talking this through with a pdoc perhaps may prove beneficial. i Hope you'll like the forums as we have one dedicated to eating disorders and one to depression as well. Feel free to contact the admins and moderators in case you need assistance. Explore the forums you prefer. i am also available if you need it and Hopefully many others as well if you just ask. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Tmansdc, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!