I understand much of what you're saying. I left and rented an apartment only because his parents own the home we shared. The kids are better off there, but it does make me the "bad parent" because I moved out. Hopefully they'll understand more when they're older, but right now it's difficult. I had a mental breakdown at the start of COVID staying home and having to face my emotions and on top of it the anxiety and depression of pausing "normal" life. I'm here to talk if you want. I don't want to always be the one talking, so how can I help? I could stay home and cry all day as well, but my kids are here and I am trying so hard to stay strong when around them. Separation and divorce sucks no matter how you look at it, but it has to get better, right?