I'm not as negative today I called the pdoc. He told me I can visit him any time tuesdays and thursdays. He through me on Thorazine (100mg) and Vistaril (3x a day) along with my other medications. He said I will feel drugged for a couple of days but the Vistaril is like tick tacks. They're doing nothing. Don't worry H is keeping my medication. I don't know when my next appointment with pdoc is but I feel so much better being responsible and he didn't through me IP. That wasn't even on his mind Maybe next time it'll be easier to make the call. I don't know what to do with all this energy. I still want to be destructive but I can wait it out. PLUS no drinking for me. apparently drinking is bad with these meds. I'm scared of the thorazine. I'm also scared of telling other dr.'s I'm on thorazine and another AP. Am I really this ****ed up? Is sanity really worth all these drug? I'm only doing this because I realize my thinking is off.