I would consider therapy.......talking doesn't cure you, but talking can help. What a terrible thing to say to you....to wait for death....I am so sorry; no one should ever be told something like that. If you feel you can't talk, you could always write things down. I saw a movie once, where the woman was so traumatized, she couldn't speak, and she and her therapist communicated by writing. I don't think you want to die, but want the pain and misery to stop. There is no reason to suffer, and I hope you will see a therapist, you have nothing to lose. Sending love and hugs