My husband and I are in a rut. A not so small one. I know he's depressed, but I don't feel I'm in the right frame of mind to be giving him the support he needs. I feel bad about that. Of course I could use support, as well, but I feel I could likely proceed on auto drive. His depression is the deeply sad type, where crying can happen at the drop of a hat. Unless I'm in a mixed episode, mine is more like a feelingless state. Tough, and not as easy to breakdown. Right now he's outside sitting in the sun. He likely wishes I would join him, but I yearn for time to myself. I will go outside in a few minutes, because I know it is the right thing to do.
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