Hi, I know how you feel, I'm in that same place but I will tell you what I do that helps sometimes and maybe that will help you. I listen to quiet music and try to picture myself somewhere that would make me happy, like on a beach, or by a lake with no people and lots a different animals around me. After all, animal don't judge, or I play computer games or I go out on to a webcam in Africa and watch the monkeys and other animals play, that puts a smile on my face.

But you did the right thing writing here for help, but if it doesn't get better call for help. You may not think so, but people do care about you and wouldn't want anything to happen to you.