So Sorry that you're struggling! Hugs! i agree with the wise and wonderful unaluna about trying to build joy out of appreciation for ourselves. Try to make a list of positive things about yourself. Hopefully that will Help and will be a positive way to cope. i think nobody is pointless, you just need to find your own special qualities i Believe. i am here if you need to talk and Hopefully manyy others as well. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to ALL of you, @raging vortex, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!