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It's really hard to face the fact my parents legitimately rather I stay mired in self loathing and deep unhappiness, tried their best to ensure I'd never have supportive friends so I'd never develop self worth, and happily authorised so many people to abuse me. Society and sometimes even fellow survivors say parents love their children so they "tried their best with what they know"... but that genuinely isn't my reality. Some parents enjoy harming their children for fun and relish the hurt caused.