Thanks @CANDC for your reply I'll read the things you posted. The sadness for my aunt is a problem, but I think to can slowly deal with it. The main problem is having these two kisses in my two main "environments", so it's difficult to find a good distraction. And also about the need to spend more time with my mum...this feels difficult to solve.
About a grief counselor, I have my t, though I usually see her for other reasons...now I have to wait a while before seeing her, but I'll try to talk to her about this (though it's a bit difficult for me to talk about this face to face).