It doesn't feel like my T judges me for my past episodes of badness. She actually wants me to get past it, but I think it might be dangerous. She calmely listens to my repetitive comments and thinks about it. She also openly says when she doesn't know something or feels she lacks expertise in some area. E.g. she told me last session to see a psychiatrist, she spent a lot of time trying to push towards that very gently, because she feels she cannot diagnose me, because some of my symptoms are outside of her practical field of experience. Probably she also wants me to take drugs if needed and wants the door to that already partly opened.