Thanks for the article. I had heard of cherries having anti-inflammatory properties. I will definitely get some cherries and look for cherry juice too. I have been eating blueberries past 2 days. I put epson salts in tub. I use ice on neck, arm and back. I bought tumeric capsules and take one 2 or 3 times a day. I have been reading about inflammation. A lot of study is being done on that topic. It seems to be my problem. The Indocin helped quite a bit yesterday, but I'm still sore. I don't think this could be called fibromyalgia because every sore spot that gets xrayed shows degenerative change. However it's not severe change.

Right now at almost 3 p.m., I'm just getting up to dress and do dishes. After breakfast earlier, I just fell asleep again. I'll try to do things now. I know some of this is depression. You're correct. The social isolation has gone on too long. Getting someone in to help could be good for me mentally also.

My boyfriend died May 31 of last year. I was okay over the holidays. My Christmas was very nice. I did have one friend come for dinner. Then I got blue after taking down the tree and other decorations. That happens every January. But I've stayed down since then, and recently I'm getting much worse. It's so discouraging. Spring is a nice time that I usually like. I'm in this house way too much.

I think of getting a dog. But I don't want to take on another big responsibility, when I'm not even handling the basics I have to do now. First I must get my home together and finish dealing with my boyfriend's affairs.

Next week I get 2nd vaccine shot. By mid-May I will feel protected from COVID. Then I will stop all this isolating and spend time around other people.

I get afraid now that I've gone too far downhill and won't be able to turn around this deterioration. I have to push against giving up.

Thanks for understanding how pain and isolation and depression can get to a person. I appreciate the encouragement. Yesterday I looked at pictures of my boyfriend and sobbed. That hadn't happened for awhile. So I am really worse than I had been. I have to stop neglecting everything, or I may get in a hole I can't get out of.