I tried going back to school to finish my degree that I started at 18. I was in my late 30's, or early 40's I think. I got a voice teacher and practiced and memorized the music and dressed up, even though I felt fat. I was hyped up the day of the audition and felt I could do no wrong. Everything was easy- a breeze. Everyone had nice things to say to me. When I sight read, the professor said "That was easy for you, wasn't it?" But then it all came crashing down when I got the rejection letter a little while later. I tell myself that they didn't have a lot of spots and they probably gave "my" spot to someone younger and with a better voice. I can't fathom trying to get a job just to fail yet again for who knows what reason this time. This is why I'm on disability- that and my chart detailing all my psych ER visits and my psych hospitalizations, even though it's been years since I've been to either one, now.