i want to start telling you lies. want to make it sound like nothing bothers me. it would be so much better than suffering in silence. I try to tell you in emails but no reponse. I wish I could blame it on the move. but you were like this before hand. Funny thing is when we started 7 years ago, you were responsive to emails and texts. and then one day you seemed to of had it. No more responding but here and there and lately nothing. so ... what I wish I could tell you is that I have no idea what good this is doing because I can get this from my own mom, I text and call and she doesnt respond, sound familiar!!! I think your not responding hurts more. I have no one in my life and it makes me really thing that it is better alone. I have about 8 years until my youngest moves out, and then it will truly just be me. Will you still be here? Probably not, its my prediction. and neither will my mom because she never is. Maybe living out of my car in 8 years sounds like a great idea. I can go and do anything i want and have no contact with anyone. live out of my car and go hiking with a small dog that I will adopt I think.Looking forward to that.