i think my Aunt was the only one who could even come close to understanding what a special person my Grandma was. the rest of my grandparents died when i was young, so she was the 'only one' i had for over twenty years!

and with my lack of relationships due to my 'd' and anxiety, that just increased the 'special quality'!!!
nearly everyone in my family, immediate relatives included, is 'paired' up - in some way. and then there was me.... so, many years ago, it became 'my tradition' to spend my holidays with my Grandma. (either just a one-on-one visit that day or with a few others like my parents) needless to say, my holidays have been quite difficult the past three years