I feel very shaky this morning. I think my husband is dragging his heels on the divorce paperwork. This means I may have to hire a lawyer again to file for divorce myself, but I really don’t have the money. I’m pissed that his lawyer hasn’t gotten back to me and over the fact that my husband is playing innocent as though he has nothing to do with it.

So I let loose on him, and all my anger that I haven’t expressed to him over the last two months came out. I feel out of control and I don’t like that.

I wish I could just gray rock him but it’s too hard for me. I react and I react strongly. My anger towards him is deep.