I'm so sorry that your experience of therapy has led you to that conclusion. It's so sad when a therapy relationship causes more issues than it solves It sounds like you were let down really badly. I know it probably feels hopeless now but there are very different therapists out there to what you describe who do care deeply (whether or not they use the term love), are invested in you as a person, and are genuine. It's a sad fact that therapists need money to pay the bills like everyone else, but it doesn't make their care less real. It's like any other profession - there's good and bad apples and everyhing in between. It sounds like you've had a really bad experience which is awful. I hope you find a way forward that works for you, whether that's to search for another therapst or find some other way to manage. Thinking of you.