Got in touch with my ex- girlfriend its been 6 months since we last spoke . I know I shouldn't but its mothers day and I was with her last mothers day after her mom died and she had a very hard time so I wonted to make sure she was ok. Oh by the way I'm married for over 20 years .My wife hates her but understands that i care for her .Keep in mind that when my bipolar was at its worst( right after my mom died ) My wife turn her back on me, dump me ,Handed me off to my girlfriend who is bipolar to and moved on with her life .We got back together less then a year ago I think she found that the grass wasn't greener on the other side that without me her life was a mess. But now i have feelings for someone besides her I. I'm in love with two woman and know I should pick one but for me love was always very hard to come by . How do you just stop loving someone ?

I guess being BIPOLAR I always had a hard time getting close to anyone I don't have many friends and I don't talk to anyone in my family they just don't understand mental illness .So both my wife and girlfriend are the only 2 people I have had feelings for .How do I just give one of them up when they mean that much to me .