So Sorry that you're struggling! Hugs! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about trying to talk to her about this. Try to talk to her about this. Hopefully she will Support you. Perhaps seeing a Therapist may Help as Well. Please do not give up. Sending many safe, warm hugs to ALL of you, @Dave787, your Families, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!