I am so sorry you feel this way. I think going to therapy can teach us to love ourselves and maybe some therapist can help model what was missing in our lives or is missing. There are therapist out there like mine who offer compassion, care, and I know she loves working and helping each of her clients. I have had some awful therapist do the exact opposit and for me I made no progress.
There is nothing wrong with wanting this as a good therapist would understand and help you because they care deeply about there clients. Hugs