Thanks for your thoughts, Just trying to get through today right now, actually minute by minute, I do not like how I feel after being in the hospital-it is like I am a stranger to the world. Just need some support to get through this and I need to keep talking, so I do not sink into deeper depression, and stay out of the bed- not a good place for me right now. I want to delete the post but I am trying to leave it alone, maybe someone out there can be helped through my post.