Also i feel this need to go back to drinking to numb myself. I didnt have anything for over 4 months now due to what thc did to my brain but now i feel like im capable of drinking again
Just scared not to make things worse.. i just want to feel free.. not trapped or depressed. My ex doesnt respond for 4 days now and i know she has her issues but she is the only person in this entire world that i care for and not hearing back breaks me inside. I have nobody i could hug to.. its brutal.