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Old Apr 29, 2021, 06:00 AM
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I’m not trying to scare anyone, but I have a question I would really like an honest answer to despite its subject matter…

I want to be dead. I know I’m probably just being dramatic due to my situation but the more I think about am everything the more I wonder if life is even worth it if we die anyway. Yes I get that experiences are worth it and what you do for others matters but seriously. Why is death not considered an option when literally everything else is an exercise in futility?
Im not trying to say I’m so depressed I want to die but rather even at my beat I can’t seem to find an actual reason we live and cling to it so. I don’t know what to think haha and I know I need my meds back soon but all in all I just don’t know… thoughts? And please don’t try to “talk me off the ledge”, I’m not in that kind of crisis I’m just too philosophical.
Not everything is an exercise of futility. We have control over many things in life, such as decisions and choices we make, how we choose to interact with different people we meet, and how we choose to react to life circumstances we face. Then there are things beyond our control such as natural disasters, the economy, and how other people react and relate to us.

I believe that our soul's life purpose is simply to be happy, and that life is meant to be lived to the fullest extent, to the extent where we DO have control.

If you find that you are unhappy in a particular life circumstance, make a change. We can choose to be unhappy and miserable and allow that life circumstance to swallow us whole into an abyss of depression, or we can choose to step out of the circumstance that makes us unhappy, whether that be a relationship, a job, or where we live. It's a choice we can make, and those choices ARE within our control, which means life itself is not futile.

Yesterday, I was in the pits of a depression because of my abusive husband and pending divorce. Today, I woke up and feel very different. I am ending this abusive marriage, I am leaving it, and I am choosing a new path, a different path, that will lead to far greater happiness.

Now I could have stayed in this marriage out of fear and by thinking I will never be happy again because I will be single at the age of 50. I could have chosen to stay, thinking what's the point of an upheaval at my age? I will die at some point and sooner than later given my age.

But no, my thoughts are instead that I can create a brand new life, full of new friends, activities that I enjoy and hobbies and interests. I am excited for my new life to begin. It's a choice I am making. I was miserable in my marriage, and now I am choosing to be happy and single again.

So, no not everything is futile. We always have a choice to make our life as we want it to be. We are the creators of our own destiny.

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Last edited by Have Hope; Apr 29, 2021 at 06:19 AM.