Thank you, Skeezyks, I guess even if it’s not wholly typical it’s nice to know I’m not alone. It’s nice to hear from you, in any case!
A related rant of sorts - I’ve been called “moody” several times, from my early teens to more recent years (every time, I was just trying to mind my own business. I’d have understood if I’d been trying to get the people who called me that to hang out with me, because they’d have had a reason to rebuff me. Instead I was left wondering why they said it, so out of the blue, and why they’d been so angry at me, when I hadn’t even said anything to them lol). Working with my counsellor, we’ve deduced I’ve been experiencing PTSD since early childhood and (though I always felt something was “off” about me) never realised.
I have been put off acting happy, too, because of course people make sarcastic comments or, weirdly, feel a need to point out to others that you’re acting different than you normally do. I wonder if they realise it makes some people self conscious? It’s definitely not been helpful for me.
I’m irritated by really stupid things, too. My mum talking too much, people riding past in loud cars/motorbikes (because some of them don’t just ride past, they seem to do laps of the village or sit there revving the engine) and planes going over the house. Sometimes it’s just too much.