Thank you a lot for your support here, guys! I wish I could say that I started feeling better but I don't..
I am really afraid of the future,, like i am afraid something bad is ought to happen, I've become somewhat supersticious...
I will see my psychologist only on May 19th cause of his vacation, and after that, I hope I will be any better...

Dear Yaowen,
Yes, the hotel Rossiya is no longer there, but there are lots of other 5 star hotels, like Ritz Carlton or Metropol or Crowne Plaza here...
Moscow is a real treasure for a traveler, I love living here way more than in my home town but unfortunately now I don't feel like going out anywhere. A couple of weeks ago I agreed to come with not such a close friend of mine to St Pete's, but now I don't know what I am going to do there... I don't want any kind of night life... It's a shoot.