This is the issue:
He claims that he's a completely "changed man", which to him, erases all his prior abuse that I endured in our marriage for 2.5 years. He now claims that I did not want to try and fix things, so I am now to blame - not his infidelity, not his countless acts of dishonesty, and not his abuse. It's that I didn't want to try, especially after only one couples therapy session.
He thinks his best behavior erases all prior abuse. He refuses to talk about the past, and he claims that I live in the past and just want to keep rehashing it.
So now he walks away feeling good about himself because he tried to make things "right" by being the ideal, supportive and loving husband for the last 2 months, and I feel disempowered and bitter because my reality of abuse is not validated or acknowledged.
My truth is erased, and his truth replaces it - classic gaslighting. And now I am left with the bitter injustice of it all. How do I recover from his gaslighting?
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination"
~4 Non Blondes
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