Ok, that didn't last long. I am back and need to get this off my chest.

He texted a barrage of texts yesterday - hoovering types of texts, begging me to come back to him. He keeps claiming he's come to Jesus and God to atone for the way he's treated me. He's prayed to God to take his life if he doesn't make me happy for the rest of my life. He keeps saying he's changed dramatically because he lost me and while we were apart for three months. Of course, two weeks after our break up, he still has not begun any therapy for himself. It's all words and just talk.

But I stood my ground, barely responded, and gave only a brief one-sentence reply: "NO" is what I said. He continued to barrage me with texts, while I was working. I didn't reply.

He will not wear me down this time - not this time. He doesn't listen to the fact that I've said I cannot live with the constant mistrust and that I will never truly trust him again. I've stated this several times to him since we broke up again. But does he listen to me or believe me? NO, and it's infuriating. I want to slap him. He just keeps trying to convince me instead.

And I feel it mostly comes from loneliness. He is alone without his roommate these days, he lives far out of town in the middle of nowhere, and he spends his nights alone in his apartment.

I am NOT giving in and I will NOT reply to these texts anymore. I hope he got the message yesterday with my minimal engagement and my brief reply.

It's just maddening - a while back, he hoovered me for several months, I was in a vulnerable place and needed support, so I caved and gave into it. Not this time.

He's just a big fat liar is what he is - and he's all talk and no action. Like hell he's changed.