Dear ReveuseTroublee,
My English is not very good but I want to tell you that I think you are a very heroic person. Life has been so brutally hard on you. It is just heartbreaking. Wish I knew what to say to be helpful to you. I was in a really awful and dark place once with no escape and no hope and then one day things just turned around for me. I hope that things will get better for you. You deserve so much better than life has given you!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen