Dear @ReveuseTroublee, I feel like Yaowen does. And good for you in being brave enough to open up & express yourself here with us. Frankly, I have a hard time doing that. But that's what this place is for, to feel safe & help each other. All of us here have mental problems. And many of us feel like we don't fit in anywhere. I am so sorry you are going through such a painful time. Please hang in there & stay with us, ok??