i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters. Mental illnesses can be hard to deal with i think but i do believe it is possible to manage them. So Sorry that you're feeling like giving up right now but Please do not do that. i think you have the strength that is necessary to continue like everyone does at least in my opinion. Just try to take things slowly and perhaps do something nice for yourself. You deserve a reward for everything that you're going through i think. Just try your best like you're perhaps already doing. i Hope things will get easier for everyone. i am available if you need to talk and Hopefully many others as well. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Merlin, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!