(((ROZ))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. It is not the rules of motherhood that make us stronger but the wisdom to make the decisions necessary when things get the toughest for the betterment of humanity. It is sad that someone that makes the right decisons in life feel punished by the rules of motherhood, ahen nothing is written in stone. I hope you feel better soon Roz. Take care. Soidhonia..