It seems like others bring out the worst in me and that I'm meant to bring out the worst in them. It seems like I'm good at making everyone feel worse than before. I have trouble with rumination. I wish I had had more good memories of camp and outings and high school activities. It's ironic how I was able to make up for that. It seems like for at least half of my life, I was treated like I was unlikeable compared to more 'normal' people.