Hay. I don't mean to join in or anything but I was reading what you were saying about anger. I feel my self getting very angry at times and sometimes I feel that when I do get that angry I know I should not be this way at all. And I know when I do get that angry I know I am hurting those around me and sometimes I can not help myself. I been hurt in the past and I have family who hurt me. So I take the pain and the anger and take it on those who really done nothing to me. But then there been times when I have people come at me and I get so angry that I feel myself losting it. And when you said you feel like someone is chocking you. I get that too. And I feel the world is out to get me and everything that is happening to me is becasue I am a bad person and that gets me even more angry because I know I am not a bad person.

And when you said you can be very snappy, rude and take it on those who remind you of someone. I do that too. My son reminds me of his father and what he done and what his family done to me and my son. So I find my self getting very angry at him but it isn't his fault that they are the way they are. Then I get angry because my mom does it to me too about my father. She always says I am just like my dad. That gets me angry too.

The funny thing is I destroyed things that is someone else too. Like my husband to be when he gets me so angry and so hurt I go in and destroy the cards I give him or I take off the rings he give me. And I am so tried and so sick of feeling this way. All I want to do is live a happy life. I been through so much in my past up to now that is all I want.

So I understand what you are saying.