I have the urge to just run away, it is quite bad. I am so utterly confused and overwhelmed... I want to go to the places and feel like it truly happened. I want it to feel real. I am so scared. I feel so lost. I know going to hospital and mental hospital is a way to hurt me but I just want to relate Idk. what do I really want? I know ending up in there again would be bad. Idk what to do.
Whatever this is, I feel like I am going crazy. I want to move constantly probably (ED behavior) but I can not let myself get out. I am too out of it. I am scared to lose it. Maybe I have nothing to fear I don't know. I don't trust myself.